Where should I start? Perhaps it would be a good idea to stop making annual entries so I don't have so much to talk about.

My ex-girlfriend is pregnant with my child. She is due in March of this year (obviously). I am excited to be a father, however, the mother is making things difficult for me. Shortly after we broke up in the middle of June (this year) she found out she was pregnant with my child. By this time she was already with another person. This person, according to her text message about an hour ago, wants to marry her. Now I'm asking myself, who the fuck marries a pregnant woman while in the military; that you have only known for less that six months since you're gone all the time; that is pregnant with someone else's child? Sure, I sound a little jealous and that is because I am to be honest with you.

I loved her and the feeling wasn't mutual. I wanted so badly to join the armed forces and due to my past, I couldn't. Now she marries this guy, who she barely knows, that is exactly what I wanted to be. Now, I'm not saying that he is better than me, no. But rather that he has the job and the life I wanted to have with my ex. Good for that guy, I guess.

Deep down I feel that she is just going to end up divorced and stuck with another child. Unfortunately for my ex, she is a fucking idiot when it comes to just about everything from book smarts, to every day life. She has no idea what she is getting herself into. All she knows is that she has this "spark" with the guy because it's still new. We were together for a year and a half. After about 4 months of spending every second together that "spark" was gone. She is in for the same fate this time except she is going to be married to the fool, putting my daughter through a divorce. At least that's how I feel about it.

Phew, it felt good to get that off my chest!

This past month I have been online dating like a machine. I had one really cool girlfriend for about a week and then she just stopped talking to me. This has happened a couple of times now and I'm starting to wonder if I will find love. I know I'm young, and I still have several years ahead of me (hopefully), but I want that love now! I'm sick of waiting! I want my daughter to have a mother and father to come home to. A good mother and father, not some dumb girl and an Army douche. When she gets older you can bet your ass that I will be fighting for custody.

Anyway, there's my annual update. Sorry that it was all drama. Perhaps I will be a little more optimistic on my next entry. Thanks for reading.

Oh dear... well, I hope that you can gain custody of your daughter eventually. Gather evidence to build your case, I suppose...
» randomjunk on 2013-01-03 07:43:15

Oh man, what an entry! Sounds like a lot has been happening to you in the past year! I'm so sorry that things didn't work out between you and your ex, that sucks. As for the new guy, I have a friend who is in the military (about your age) who has been separated from his (second) wife for more than a year but he refuses to divorce her because he gets paid more if he is married. So this guy could be like that... or he could be a good guy who wants to give a pregnant gal a good life. Who knows. I hope you and the new guy can get along well enough so that you can see your daughter often. What did you do in the past that made it so you couldn't join the military? Sounds like 2013 has lots of adventures in store for you.
» Zanzibar on 2013-01-04 07:51:41

I have a history of ADHD that wasn't an issue 4 years ago. The U.S. military is getting cut down under the Obama administration thus making it harder to get into the military. Stupid Democrats..
» gotenkz on 2013-01-07 07:02:58

you seemed pretty optimistic on this one. you're going to have a kid, and you're on the prowl for love! sounds good to me.
» thaitanic on 2013-01-09 10:12:40

haha thanks
» gotenkz on 2013-01-10 04:34:48

Glad to see you've returned to Nutang.
Why the long hiatus? You think you're back for good?

I'm actually from Arlington.. went to college in san antonio though. I'm familiar with n. richland hills too.


It sounds like we're on the same boat in a lot of ways -- my only advice is similar to what you gave me. Time to move on. And I know, that's cliche and it hasn't worked for me when people say shit like 'just move on,' but it really is all we can do when you love someone that won't reciprocate.

As far as the baby, I recommend you start looking into filing for joint, if not full, custody asap. You don't want to be locked out of the kid's life or only have access to your child on a whim. Get it taken care of now, before he or she is born, to show that you're willing and able to put forth the effort to be an effective part of the baby's life going forward.


» undisputed on 2013-01-10 05:32:09

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